"Love I've Found In You"

Well maybe I'm just lucky
But maybe that's OK
Some people search the whole world over
Just to find a love, that's even half as true
As the love I've found in you


These are the lyrics from the chorus of a song by Lady Antebellum called "Love I've Found In You." I really like this part of the song. Even though the song is about a couple, these lyrics remind me of the love we can find in God. Some people don't realize what they are missing. They try to fill the void in their life with anything but God. It is troubling to know and have someone refuse to believe that God's love will heal them. I am so thankful that I have had the family and the surroundings to let me grow in my faith. I had the opportunity to have friends and family who showed me God's love. Some people just need someone to show them what God's love is. Most of the time people won't respond to someone just telling them what God did for them. They need proof. His love can be proven by the daily blessings we receive and by some one's example. Those people who search the world over for a love to fill that void need someone to give them the choice of God's love. Isn't that what we were called to do? So go and live your life as an example for the lost and share His amazing love.

Locked Out

I forgot my key. It is a normal way of being locked out of your house. I got home from school and searched through my backpack to find nothing. No key and no way of getting in until someone else got home. Normally I would not mind sitting on our screened in porch for fifteen minutes. However, it was winter. Sometime in January and it was snowing and very very cold. I, of course, only had a sweatshirt to keep me warm. The school skirt was not very affective in keeping me warm either. So. I sat huddled in a corner of our porch until my sister got home and opened the door. What a relief it was to feel the warm heat and the dry air. I ran to put sweatpants on and curled up with a book in a huge comfy chair right next to the heater. Oh and i couldn't forget that warm cup of tea that warmed my insides as well as the out. I like my view of the snow a lot better from the inside of the window instead of being out with it. I will always remember to take my key with me, especially in the winter.

Adrenaline

Exilerating
peaceful moments
before the fall
pull together
close my eyes
and jump
small moment
lasts an eternity
no breath will come
until that final
second of ------ whoosh
release
splash
  .
     .
       .
         .
           .
             .
              .
               .
                .
            down
frigid waves
eyes wide
see the world
anew

To Know Her

To understand
her is beyond capability
To accept
for all that she is
To follow
in her footsteps
To live
with day by day
To wonder
what would happen
if she would ever go                                       away.

Transformation

What does one say
to a lost soul?
How can one save
a absolute view?
When is the time
to change a mind?
Where will the thought
begin to grow?
Why is it so hard
to transform a life?

Stress: Good and Bad

Main	stress
Part of Speech:	verb
Definition:	put under physical or mental pressure
Synonyms:	afflict, burden, crunch, distend, force, fret, hassle, overdo, overextend, pull, put in traction, put on trial, spring, strain, stretch, tense, tense up, traumatize, worry

The most appropriate synonyms for stress in this entry are burden, overextend, and strain. At the end of a marking period I experience, along with many others, most of these feelings. I have taken three physics tests withing a week and a half. This makes me feel physically and mentally overextended. There is good and bad stress. It all depends on how you handle the stress you experience. The stress can be good if you work through what you need to do and persevere. Bad stress occurs when you overwork yourself because you think nothing is good enough. This also happens when you procrastinate and have to make of for it at three in the morning. My goal this next marking period is not to diminish all the stress in my life, but just the bad stress. I want to work hard for what I get, but not strain myself to the limit. This next marking period I do not want to stress myself out, but let the healthy and natural stress help me get my work done.

Fear

Pencils clicking
Tap. Tap. Tap
Nervous hands shake
violently trying to hold
papers still.
Churning begins deep
inside. Time passes slowly
tick    tock    tick    tock
Fidgeting.
Blank stares glare back.
Mouth runs dry. Words
cannot come.
Fear is
            looming.

Forgotten Chore

Sticky dishes
towering over. Stern
glances freeze time.
Lost track of clocks
Hurried response. Fill the
washer minutes pass with words
of anger. Sorrow in a passing shadow.
Ticks go by til silence
sweeps into the frozen
moment. "Sorry" is not enough
to go back to when bowls
were shining.

New Born Baby

Soft skin
Open eyes see for the first
time. Fresh life beginning now
as love surrounds
the unknowing soul. Precious
moments must be shared to
give new life a future and a hope

Change

     I abhor change. For the simple reason that it is scary. No one wants to have their life thrown into an upheaval. I like routine and traditions. No one wants to have something they know and cherish taken away from them. Having something to depend on is important. Now you might say, "Well people always let you down." But I choose to believe that even though people can let you down there is always someone in your life who know you and cares enough to try and be there at all cost. This earthly person, for me, is my sister. The closer it gets to June the more I hate change. You see, she is a senior. I hate that word. I hate that she has to leave. And finally, I hate that I have to be an only child at home for an entire year. I do not want things to change. It seems like we just started to be be really close and I do not want to lose that by having distance between us. I have yet to accept this change and I doubt I will be willing to any time soon. At this moment, I am sitting in our living room looking at my sister's senior picture hanging on the wall. It makes me want to throw it away and then go and cry somewhere. However, throwing a picture away will do absolutely nothing. So I continue to sit and stare and be mad at change because there is absolutely nothing you can do to stop it.

Angels

Every Christmas my parents give me and my sister and angel. Sometimes we got more than one, so or collections are getting quite large. There is a collection or brand of angels that are my favorite. They are all named after a guardian of something. Such as: Guardian of the animals or guardian of the waters. These are my favorite angels because they are very detailed and whatever they are the guardian over is with them. Their wings are the color of their dress and they fade to a different color. They are very beautiful. These angels are special to me because it is a tradition. Sometimes it is a tiny ornament angel and other times it is a normal sized angel that you can sit on a shelf. We sometimes get really delicate glass angels or little bell angels. It is fun to see each Christmas what angel we get.

What I and Six Others Have Learned

*Others*


- I have learned to live every day to the fullest because you never know when it might be your last.


- I have learned not to eat yellow snow.


- I have learned that sometimes it is not what you know, but who you know.


- I have learned to always trust my gut.


- I have learned that you have to make your own good time.

- I have learned that you need to listen before you speak and that you can learn alot by really paying attention
  to what people say.
*Me*


- I have learned to always use baking spray.


- I have learned that the apple does not fall far from the tree.


- I have learned material things can not fill the voids in your life.


- I have learned that yelling usually never solves your problems.


- I have learned that even though someone says they believe in something does not mean they act according
  to that belief.